This is a crazy world.
These can be lonely times.
It's hard to know who's on your side,
Most of the time.

Who can you really trust?
Who do you really know?
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone?
Sometimes, you just can't make it on your own.

If you need a place where you can run,
If you need a shoulder to cry on,
I'll always be your friend.

When you need some shelter from the rain,
When you need a healer for your pain,
I will be there time and time again.
When you need someone to love you,
Here I am.

If you have broken dreams,
Just lay them all on me.
I'll be the one who understands,
So take my hand.

If you reach emptiness,
You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone.
I promise you, you'll never walk alone.

Hurr, I don't know whether I should go to school tomorrow. My temp's 39 and increasing :/ My throat's extremely sore and my nose is running farfar away): But I think I should go? Since I did all my homework already, heh.

Budakk, remind me to follow you get the wheelchair tomorrow, okay? :D Hurr, hope what I said today made you feel a tiny bit better? Cheer up, you!

Today only, you.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I don't think I can make it. Only one more month to EYEs, and I'm still not in full mugging mode. Kanasai. That's only around four more weeks. AHHH D: Stupid Chem, stupid Maths, stupid Malay. How am I going to pass you?

My motivation for EYEs is ICEP! Yeahhh, to Australia with platoonmates? What more can I ask for?

Sucks to you, for thinking that NCC can't help me in my studies. It's always been my source of motivation(:

Remind me to bring a jacket plus notes everyday for long bus rides(:

YOU'RE WELCOME! and didn't i tell you to stop thanking me?! HAHAHAHA.

In your arms,
I can still feel the way you want me
when you hold me.
I can still hear the words you whispered
when you told me,
I can stay right here forever in your arms.

And there ain't no way
I'm letting you go now.
And there ain't no way
and there ain't no how,
I'll never see that day.

'Cause I'm keeping you
Forever and for always.
We will be together all of our days.
Wanna wake up every morning
to your sweet face, always.

In your heart,
I can still hear a beat for
every time you kiss me.
And when we're apart,
I know how much you miss me.
I can feel your love for me in your heart.

In your eyes,
I can still see the look of the one
who really loves me.
The one who wouldn't put anything
else in the world above me.
I can still see love for me in your eyes.

Today was such a wonderful day, thanks to Grace darling :D

I saw her face for 9 hours! Haaa, but only 12 - 4pm was productive. 4 - 9pm was not! Hurr, studied Maths for 4 whole hours, with no break! Except for mini stoning breaks, haha. 7 - 9pm is not a good time to sit outside, so colddd! Hurr, but Grace was smart enough to bring her pullover. And I think we looked damn kuku, sitting on the floor in front of a bench! Hahaha. It was a full moon again today, but there was a superbright star(:

Thank you sososososo much for todayyy(: It's been ages since I talked to you like this, and heh, sorry if I got your pullover wet): I finally let everything out, and it felt so good. Thanks for waking me up this morning with your message :D










Hahaha, both of us look so spastic!

I can't sleeeeep! Even though it has been such a tiring day with recce and whatnot. Coming home at 10, and getting pissed off all over again. Hurr, fineeee, if you want it that way. I'll just ignore you right back.

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight,
That's alright, alright with me.
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing,
It's where I want to be.

Hey, you(: I'll be your angel.

When your life is going too fast,
Off the train tracks,
I can slow it down.
Just when you think you're about to turn back,
Scared you might crash,
I'll be your ground.

When you feel your heart's guarded,
When you see the break has started,
When the clouds have all departed,
You'll be right here with me.
When your tears have dried from crying
And the world has turned to silence,
When the clouds have all departed,
You'll be right here with me.

When you're trapped and there's just no key
And you can't breathe,
I'll breathe for you.
The fire's got you down on both knees
And the walls are closing in but
I'll be breaking through.

And when you feel alone,
I will be your home
When others come and go,
You know I got you.

I will be here right beside you, every step you take.
I will be your strength, your shelter, shield you from the rain.

:D

I've been feeling like crap the whole day, and it just got worse.

How I wish I can tell you everything, but I don't want to disturb you and be a bother. If I had messaged you, you would have known something was wrong. So, I'm sorry.

I miss you terribly so):

Today was one of those days when I just didn't feel like waking up. It's really surprising how I remembered my dreams today. I always forget my dreams, but not today. So maybe, this is just God's way of telling me what to correct in my life right now, and I'm scared. I didn't dream of you, and I'm scared that you're not going to be in my future.

Maybe I'm a horrible person, maybe I'm too harsh, maybe I'm expecting too much of you. What I did to you in my dream horrified me so much so that there were tears on my pillow when I woke up. Or maybe it was just drool. Doubt it, though.

I really don't know if I can trust you now. Everything you say to me now feels like just a lie. I don't have the time to sit around, contemplating every word you say to me. Sift through your lies and your truths. I don't think you know that I caught you in the act, a long time ago. I'm still acting in front of you, though. Acting as if I don't know shit, and just following you around like a blind sheep. I hate being lied to, especially by someone whom I trust. I don't give my trust and love so easily, you know. So maybe you should reflect, and treasure it. Because I take back trust and love very easily.

NDP is over ): Saturdays are back to.... studying D:

Hoho, but did you see meeee on tv?? Someone did :D Hahaha, ohwells, it was a nice day to end off all those months of hard work. Rubbish pictures + rubbish people. Hahaha. ZURKA! I want the pictures!

Yesterday was such a memorable day. Yvonne and her box of icecream! Hurhur, then spending the night at Marina Square with Yvonne and Trisha. There was so many people. And there was this one boy who kept falling in front of us, for no reason. Soo...

Diana: Yvonneeee! My knee pain D:
Yvonne: Why, balleh? (Go to MEDIC MODE hahaha)
Diana: My knee pain because I keep on falling for you!

HAHAHAHA.

We opened our umbrellas, set it on the ground and lay beneath it. Hahaha, I think we looked spastic.

Diana: Got no stars tonight D:
Trisha: There got one star (points to a real star), plus a moving star.
Yvonne: That's an aeroplane laa.
Trisha: Maybe it's SUPERMAN. Hahahaha.
Yvonne: Haha, wearing glow-in-the dark underwear.

OHMYGOOOSH, crazy people.

GOOSEBUMPS, SEHH! Hahahaha.

School NDP(: We did our best, NC! Fatimahhhh, the video! The platoon was highhh during the indoor segment, hehheh. Tomorrow is the real NDP :(:

Ohh, and I forgot to blog about what happened during Malay yesterday. Hurrr, because of that Zura Kamsani, our table just burst out laughing. Haha, only the 4 of us laughing like crazy people. Cikgu gave that pissed face, but we didn't care. Just continued until stomach so super painnn! Tskk, Zura! I'm not that type of person to say "I love you" without meaning it. So don't doubt my love.

Hurrr, I'm so pissed off now! Every single day, you say the same thing to me. Then just black face me the whole day away. What the hell, I have feelings too, alright. It's not like as if I don't feel guilty, but the guilt is wearing off more and more each day.

Tomorrow/later is school NDP. Good luck to all those marching especially the GOH, us!(: Pictures! :D
One more day to the real NDP. Mixed feelings! Want it to come, but don't want it to end D:

My fingers turned yellow because of store check! Hurr! Stupid tents):

Something made me happy yesterday, and today((: Thank you many x13275675123174374587

Because of someeee budak kecik, I shall update my blog.

Hurr, the Geog test today was sort of okay. What I studied came out so yayy(: But I'm not sure if I'll do well or not :/ PE was Volleyball. Ohman, got reminded of the retarded PE lessons with Fatimah, Eunice and Ash last year when we were playing Volleyball also. Hurr, my arms got super red laa):

After school was funneh. Played around with Eunice and Trisha first. Went to the computer thingys around school. Eunice made us believe that we could hear our blog songs luhh. We looked retarded, all 3 heads leaning in. The stupid computer screen is sideways also, wth! Hurr, then slacked around! HAH, best part of my day, yo(:

Changed the blog song again, out of sheer boredom. Or maybe because you're on my mind tonight. The whole day, actually.

Can't you see that I want to be
there with open arms.
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone

I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so.

I'm writing again,
these letters to you.
Aren't much I know,
but I'm not sleeping,
you're not here.
The thought stops my heart.

Sent my phone for repairs again just now. Grrrr, everything will be lost again. Sheesh. Why the hell can't messages be stored in memory cards): Kns, that's the only thing I hate. But the guy said that it'll only take around 3 - 4 days. So yay.

I can't sleep now, and no Geography is going in my head. I still can't get my Case Studies in, but hurr, I'm tired of reading about Coasts):

Someone come and knock me out, please. I want to sleeeeeeep but I just can't.

Yesterday was our second last NDP! Hurr, I don't want this to end): I want to watch the fireworks with you desperately D:

But next weeeeeek(((: I can't wait for our post-NDP thingy((((:

I never promised you a ray of light.
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday.
I give you everything I have, the good, the bad.

Why do you put me on a pedestal?
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below.
So help me down, you've got it wrong.
I don't belong there.

One thing is clear.
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me.
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so.
You wouldn't say so, if you were me.
And I, I just wanna love you.

I always said that I would make mistakes.
I'm only human, and that's my saving grace.
I fall as hard as I try,
So don't be blinded.

See me as I really am.
I have flaws and sometimes I even sin.
So pull me from that pedestal.
I don't belong there.

I think I've walked too close to love and now I'm falling in.
I felt so many things this weary soul can’t take.
Maybe you just caught me by surprise,
the first time that I looked into your eyes.

There’s a life inside of me that I can feel again.
It’s the only thing that takes me where I've never been.
I don’t care if I lost everything that I have known.
It don’t matter where I lay my head tonight,
your arms feel like home.

This life ain't the fairytale we both thought it would be.
I can see your smiling face as it's staring back at me
I know we both see these changes now.
I know we both understand somehow.